25 Days…

That’s the number of days I have to myself prior to leaving on the deployment on the 28th of November. It looks like a lot of days at first glance, but seeing as I just “lost” a week with nothing to really show for it, I am a little upset. Sure, maybe some progress was made on Friday night at the concert, but it sure doesn’t feel like it. As much as I am taken with this person, it does not feel like the feeling is mutual, and because of this I am a little disheartened. I suppose ultimately it doesn’t matter as I will be leaving for nearly a year and other’s lives will continue on without me, but it is what it is. At this point it is out of my hands. I just wish I knew what to say or that it was much easier to be comfortable around women. This is not a skill that is going to happen overnight, and I realize that it really isn’t the end of the world if things with anyone has to wait until I get back from the deployment. I just wanted to have somebody to spend these last 25 days with, even if it is just watching movies or just simply spending time together.

What to do…

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